Sometimes I just wish I could shut everyone out. I hate having to deal with problems, I hate having to deal with people who like to cause problems. My family is falling apart, my friendships are falling apart, and there's nothing I can do about it. I feel like it's all my fault, even though it's not really. I mean, there are some things I would change if I had the chance to do them over again but.. well it's too late now.
I feel like everything that ever made up the pieces of my family has fallen and smashed into a million pieces. Everything's just wrong, and there's nothing I can do. I can't be perfect, but I'm supposed to be. I can't make mistakes, but I'm only human. I can't be trusted, but I didn't do anything wrong. Or... maybe I did. I don't know anything anymore. I just don't know what to do with myself. There are only a few people in my life who I like to think that I can trust, but I don't even know anymore. Maybe I should just keep to myself for awhile - be alone, you know? Or... Maybe that's not a good idea. Having too much time to think can be a bad thing, too. I don't know! I don't know what to do with myself, my feelings... Don't get me wrong, there are some great things in my life right now... but it seems like they're being overpowered by the negative things.
Maybe things will get better... or maybe not.
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