There's so much that I want to tell you, but now I'll never get the chance. I want to tell you that I love you with all my heart, that you're always going to be my hero, that I'm going to love you forever and I never want you to leave.. I want you to know that I'm always going to be around when you need help, I want you to know that you're so important to me and that I'm never going to forget you! But no matter what I say, it just goes in one ear and out the other..
Don't get me wrong, I know it's not your fault- it's the disease. You can't remember, and you don't try anymore. You don't know who I am or why I want to spend time with you, and honestly I don't think you care anymore. You don't know what's happening to you, you're devoid of emotion, you're gone.. Just another body walking around with fragments of lost memories floating in your head.. You were always the strongest person I knew, you're the one who taught me to hold on.. but you've given up. Why bother, right? I mean, it's not like there's a cure for what you've got! It's just going to keep eating away at your brain until there's nothing left.. nothing but a body.. And one day you're going to leave us forever, not knowing who or what you're leaving behind. If it had been 10 years ago and you could look into the future and see yourself now, you would have been mortified to know that this was going to happen. But you'll never know now, because you can't remember.. You'll never remember.. When I look in your eyes, you're not really there.. I want to be able to look in your eyes and see you! Just a sparkle of you, a fleck.. but I know that that's too much to ask for..
It's the disease. It took you away and you're never coming back.. never..
I MISS YOU. End of story.
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