Friday, January 29, 2010

Even the best fall down sometimes..

I wish my brain had a map to tell me where my heart should go..

And all I know is I feel lost without you.. 'I miss you' is not enough.

Try to be a rainbow in someone's cloud.

No one can really know you (or the things you do) until you know yourself..

Everything is magic until it becomes routine.

The heart holds answers the brain refuses to see.

Never make somebody your everything, 'cause when they're gone you have nothing.

I'm mad at myself, not at you. I'm mad at always being nice, even when I'm hurt. Apologizing for things I didn't even do. For getting attached and making you a huge part of my life.

I have a list of things I like about you.. It says everything on it

All you want is something I can't be..

Sometimes you have to stand up for what you believe in, even if that means standing alone..

The hardest thing in life is to know which bridges to cross and which bridges to burn..

I wish I could care, but that part of me died a long time ago.

I'm determined to love each day more than I'm afraid of it!

The world is smaller than you think, and the people on it are more beautiful than you think.

The deepest scars are those we cannot see..

Your voice reminds me of my favourite song

You were born and original, don't die a copy.

It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does..

By loving me you're teaching me how to love myself.




Could we put our weapons down and figure this out?

Dear anyone with a low self esteem,

You are absolutely stunning; positively beautiful! I love your smile, you should really wear it more often. Your hair is a frame for a beautiful picture. Those scars that you have on your knees, they show me that you've fallen.. but that glow you still have and the sparkle in your eyes show me that you've gotten back up. You're strong.

Who cares if you have acne, or if you're chubby or thin, tall or short, smart or perhaps a little slow? All the matters is that there's someone out there who loves you for who you are- someone who thinks you're beautiful. There's someone out there who loves those things about you that you hate; those are their favourite parts. That someone is me. I wish that you could see in yourself what I see in you, what your friends and family see in you. I wish that you could love those things the way we love them..

I LOVE YOU! End of story.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

The things I can't say to you..

There's so much that I want to tell you, but now I'll never get the chance. I want to tell you that I love you with all my heart, that you're always going to be my hero, that I'm going to love you forever and I never want you to leave.. I want you to know that I'm always going to be around when you need help, I want you to know that you're so important to me and that I'm never going to forget you! But no matter what I say, it just goes in one ear and out the other..

Don't get me wrong, I know it's not your fault- it's the disease. You can't remember, and you don't try anymore. You don't know who I am or why I want to spend time with you, and honestly I don't think you care anymore. You don't know what's happening to you, you're devoid of emotion, you're gone.. Just another body walking around with fragments of lost memories floating in your head.. You were always the strongest person I knew, you're the one who taught me to hold on.. but you've given up. Why bother, right? I mean, it's not like there's a cure for what you've got! It's just going to keep eating away at your brain until there's nothing left.. nothing but a body.. And one day you're going to leave us forever, not knowing who or what you're leaving behind. If it had been 10 years ago and you could look into the future and see yourself now, you would have been mortified to know that this was going to happen. But you'll never know now, because you can't remember.. You'll never remember.. When I look in your eyes, you're not really there.. I want to be able to look in your eyes and see you! Just a sparkle of you, a fleck.. but I know that that's too much to ask for..

It's the disease. It took you away and you're never coming back.. never..

I MISS YOU. End of story.

You're still the best, more or less.. I guess

57 Reasons to live:

  1. Falling in love
  2. Laughing so hard your face hurts
  3. A hot shower
  4. No lines at the super market
  5. A special glance
  6. Getting mail
  7. Taking a drive on a pretty road
  8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio
  9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside
  10. Hot towels out of the dryer
  11. Finding out the sweater you want is on sale for half price
  12. Chocolate milkshakes
  13. A long-distance phone call
  14. A bubble bath
  15. Giggling
  16. The beach
  17. Finding money in your jacket from last winter
  18. A good conversation
  19. Laughing at yourself
  20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours
  21. Running through sprinklers
  22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all
  23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful
  24. Laughing at an inside joke
  25. Friends
  26. Falling in love for the first time
  27. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you
  28. Waking up and realizing that you still have a few hours left to sleep
  29. Your first kiss
  30. Making new friends or spending time with old ones
  31. Playing with a new puppy
  32. Late night talks with your roommate that keep you from sleeping
  33. Having someone play with your hair
  34. Sweet dreams
  35. Hot chocolate
  36. Road trips with friends
  37. Swinging on swings
  38. Watching a good movie cuddled up on a couch with someone you love
  39. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and drinking eggnog
  40. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid
  41. Going to a really good concert
  42. Getting butterflies in your stomach every time you see that one person
  43. Making eye contact with a cute stranger
  44. Winning a really competitive game
  45. Making chocolate chip cookies!
  46. Having your friends send you homemade cookies
  47. Spending time with really close friends
  48. Seeing your friends smile and laugh
  49. Holding hands with someone you care about
  50. Running into a friend and realizing that some things, good or bad, never change
  51. Discovering that love is unconditional and stronger than time
  52. Riding the best roller coasters over and over
  53. Hugging the person you love
  54. Watching the expression on someones face when they open a much-desired present from you
  55. Watching the sunrise and sunset
  56. Getting out of bed every morning and thanking God for another beautiful day
  57. Having friend who's shoulders you know you can cry on and you know that you can talk to them about your deepest secrets and problems

Life's not always bad! Look on the bright side. End of story.

I CAN'T FIND MY BREATH

You don't just stop loving someone. Either you never did or you always will.

We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.

I really just want to be warm yellow light that pours over everyone I love..

Whenever you feel like criticizing anyone, just remember that all the people in this world haven't had the advantages you've had..

Don't look back unless it's a good view;

People can silence their words, dry their tears, and swallow their kisses but they will never be able to deny a feeling.

Behind every beautiful girl there is a dumbass guy who did her wrong and made her strong.



Sometimes, the right path is not always the easy one..



Just some inspiring quotes to keep you going, that's all. End of story!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

When the only thing you want is just to be still for awhile..

Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex.

Remember when..

Getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? The worst thing you could get from boys was cooties? Dad's shoulders were the highest place on Earth and mom was still your hero? When your worst emenies were your siblings. Race issues were about who could run the fastest. War was only a card game and the only drug you knew about was cough medicine. When wearing a skirt didn't make you a slut. The worst pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbye only meant until tomorrow..

The only thing you couldn't wait to do was grow up..

I wish I could turn back time.. End of story.

Do you know what you've gotten yourself into?

50 things to know about me:

1. I tend to worry easily. Even about the smallest things.
2. School and family are my number one priority and nothing will stand in the way of that.
3. I try not to fall for people easily, but somehow it just happens anyway.
4. I believe in God. You don't have to like it, but please respect it.
5. I cry all the time; when I'm happy, sad, or angry.
6. I've come to terms with the fact that life's not fair. We're always going to have to do things we don't want to, learn things we don't want to, and deal with people we don't want to. That's just how it works.
7. There is only one person who I trust with my life.
8. I think that the simplest things in life are the most beautiful. Take, for instance, an old couple in love. BEAUTIFUL.
9. Even the smallest and most insignificant things fascinate me.
10. I'm a lot more complex than I lead people to believe.
11. I adore the colour yellow.
12. Like it or not, I will always support and have faith in our troops.
13. No matter what, I will always be there when my friends need me. It doesn't matter what time it is, what day it is, where I am, or how mad I am at them.
14. I'm constantly afraid of letting people down.
15. I wish that someone could give me a simple explanation for my feelings.
16. No matter how much I say I am, I'm not bulletproof.
17. In fact, I'm quite easily bruised and damaged; both emotionally and physically.
18. As much as a adore the sun, I could just as easily live in a world where we had sun showers all the time. Or Christmas snow, I love that too.
19. My best friend now will forever be my best friend. Not a soul on this planet will change that.
20. Just because I say that it doesn't bother me anymore doesn't mean that there aren't still days when it all comes rushing back into my brain.
21. I'm really bad at staying mad at people, especially people I love.
22. I hate it when people insist something is awful just because they don't like it! Just because you don't like it doesn't mean other people don't! THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND YOU!
23. Boys scare me.
24. Commitment and relationships scare me.
25. I will forever have my guard up.
26. There's a lot you still don't know about me, so don't be so quick to judge.
27. I have a soft spot for people who have had a rough past, but when they use that to get what they want that soft spot disappears MIGHTY quick.
28. I like people in general, it's just their personalities that disappoint me.
29. I may not seem like the adventurous type, but I love to take risks. You just have to break me out of my shell.
30. It's hard to break me out of that shell.
31. I don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life.
32. I'm scared of spending my entire life alone.
33. My heart's taken a mighty beating before, so take it easy on the poor little guy.
34. I have a hard time talking about my feelings to someone's face.
35. Sometimes we will have different opinions. I don't need you to understand them, but I need you to respect them.
36. I don't like to make mistakes.
37. I make a lot of mistakes.
38. My big brother is one of my two idols; along with Audrey Hepburn.
39. Just because I'm not great at it, doesn't mean I don't like to do it!
40. I'm happy 90% of the time.
41. Don't bother me when I'm in a bad mood.
42. I can honestly say that there is only one person who can cheer me up when I'm in a bad mood every time without annoying me.
43. I love being in love.
44. I'm very stubborn and I get angry easily.
45. Just because I cry doesn't mean that I'm weak, it means I'm human.
46. I only trust one person on this planet.
47. I'm scared of growing up.
48. I love to go for long walks in the fall by myself; or bike rides.
49. Being in love is scary.
50. Out of all the people I know in the world, the only person who I hate is the person that I used to be.


Thaaaat's me! End of story.